Hey-o. I’m not procrastinating. Who said anything about procrastinating? I did my 1,000 words earlier today. Did a whole straight hour something of writing, timed it and everything. Technically in order to enforce a habit I need to do it at the same time everyday, and I will I just have that fog of anxiety. You know the one? Where you had such a good writing session and you can’t open your document afterword? It’s not that I don’t want to write (what else am I going to do?), I just can’t get my brain to wake up and go back to writing. It’s like when I used to swim. I love swimming, I could do it for hours and hours just doing laps, but it’s that moment you realize you have to get in the pool. So I dip my toe in the water to test it and it’s cold and I’m not used to it. And I don’t want to get in cause it’s cold! When load up my document I just stare at the last line I wrote and I feel so lost. Like I knew what I was doing before but now I’ve lost it and I won’t be able to get it back.
It’s why I don’t do a lot of daily goals, I never feel like I can sustain them.